Charlie diary entry

If I was Charlie Gordon, I would have mixed feelings about being made smart. First of all, I would be excited about being able to think properly. Secondly though, I would be a little bit indecisive. If I had a brain disability, I wouldn't know what would happen if I did it, so I would have been scared. On the other hand, being smart for a few months would be as much good experience as the experiences of being challenged for a few years. Even if I was sure to die sooner, it might still be a good trade-off for being smart. Even after all of this, though, I would still be undecided. What would you choose in Charlie's spot?